Blogging is therapy I’d say to get it out of my head and in writing.
I miss running and oversharing. It’s hard being out of commission and everyone else is on a plan.
I’m also super overwhelmed. This is making me lazy. I need more mental breaks. I am trying to listen to audio books, polos, podcasts, music, keep up w fafsa and college emails, student aid schedules, educational lunch n learns, eat healthy but struggle to take time to do that, workout, but sleep more, see my husband, watch my kids, spend time w my kids, fill out camp paperwork, clean my house.. oh wait, yeah the house is definitely not getting priority… nor my yard apparently with how busy both kids and my husband are.

I’m so excited to see Ian getting closer to graduation and waiting on that final package still from G-W.
Getting ready for this trip to Europe.
I’m working every single extra coverage event I can because we need the extra $. Life is so expensive right now!! And I feel partly dumb and partly YOLO for scheduling 2 trips to Europe this year. Who does that! Lol.

Yesterday after working Special Olympics in the heat, and jumping around with all the energy I provide, I shurlt down by like noon. And in my car I literally just sat and let cool air blow on me. I needed a break from people, heat, my mind, work. This was not me 2 years ago. Now it is.

I had the classic ol problem of not being able to find nice pants that fit me in my closet Tuesday for an event. I didn’t dress as nice as I would have liked.
So yesterday I hit up Goodwill for the next size up on a few things. Super frustrating but also relieved that my clothes won’t make me uncomfortable.

Changed into shorts for the games last night and saw all my cellulite in my thighs. Then thought to myself I am beautifully aging, right? Continue mantras in my head to Keep a positive image for these kids because it’s hard and genetics to keep super thin post menopause. God meant my struggles to help someone.
I told one of my athletes to love his mom as she whined and complained as she aged and gained weight. He was like yes she complains all the time. I explained to him to love her and understand it’s natural and so hard to change. All the Exercise and eating healthy won’t help when hormones drop and genetics are there.
Maybe I’m here going thru this so I can continue changing judgemental mindsets of kids. They already accept so many things that they didn’t used to.
I want all the mommas out there to know we all be struggling. Even if our Facebook looks happy.